Ladies living in a “stand your ground” state:
If you have a stalker, and this person comes up on you, DO NOT protect yourself. You could scare the stalker and this person could shoot you to death. And then what?
NOTHING!…and you’re dead. 
Murica!


Velourious Summer Kicks!

Velourious Summer Kicks!


Q
Hi! I found your video on youtube. I have so many family members in the jw organization, luckily my mom never gave in so my immediate family isn't part of that, but my aunts and uncles are. I'm so happy to hear you are out and free of this brain washing organization. I'm reaching out to you because I feel for you, I'm here to tell you it's not Gods fault, get to know the God out of jw's, you'll be amazed, and you'll fall in love with a God very differnt from what you know<3
A

Thanks for the kind words. I’ve actually never had a desire for relationships with anything higher than good people, this beautiful planet, and my own heart and mind. I was raised to believe that in order to be a good person I had to have god in there somewhere. Goodness and god were synonymous according to the way I was raised. It’s just not true, though. I don’t feel any obligation or connection to some sky daddy. 
When I left almost 20 years of my life behind, I pretty much had to start completely over. I didn’t just question JWs beliefs, or just the bible, or just religion, I questioned the idea of god too. I questioned myself and I realized that I just want to be a good and complete person, always have. I have found that no matter how god was wrapped up- JW god, Catholic god, Hindu god, personal god, Ancient Aztec god, or no god at all- I have found good people. God is irrelevant to me and my ability to be kind to people, considerate of the fragility of this planet, and connected to my own heart and mind.


Q
Your story made me cry. I can't leave the organization yet or I'll literally be a starving university student because I'm not yet financially independent, but as soon as I can, I will. My parents think college is just a phase and I'll snap out of it, and I'm on my congregation's elders' last nerves not listening to their "don't stumble the friends" counsel. I'm so glad I found your blog, and I wish I had gone through it right after I followed it. Thank you.
A

So glad to hear you’re setting yourself up for life outside of the organization. I hear you about not having the footing right now. Ha, and the stumbling thing. It always bothered me that the organization caters to the weakest links in their congregations. I always saw it as a form of bullying. Any petty “brother” or “sister” could control anybody’s life, control what they had no business in by crying “offended” or “stumbled”. I remember before I left, I read Ayn Rand’s book “The Fountainhead”. I don’t agree with most of her philosophical viewpoints but I totally picked up on the disgust she had for people who leeched off of the independent and strong. I felt very much like the congregation set up was specifically designed to keep the strong willed and independent people weighed down under guilt and obligation. 
I hope you keep your head up while you’re still trudging through this. LOL Keep your eyes on the prize, so to speak. Freedom from people who are too entangled in the cult to allow themselves to even question the validity of their beliefs. I don’t think they could handle the dissonance. Don’t give them the power to question your mind and your heart. Funny how they say you can’t trust your own heart but you’re supposed to trust that it can’t be trusted. Fucking crazies, man. Let your heart be your own. It’s not an enemy. 


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Q
Well so this is what I have a dis-agreement with, you say that being in the religion of "Jehovahs Witnesses" is a cult? How so, in the bible it even says you have free will, but make wise decisions. So therefore it is not a cult, if you are free to do as you please. Yes maybe in your opinion it was somewhat controlling, but it is no cult.
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In short reply to your free will and cult question, free will is not giving someone something and then telling them, “you better use it this way or else I’m going to kill you.” I honestly don’t believe anyone has absolute free will but that’s a bigger topic you’re not ready to talk about if you’re only familiarity with the topic is from the bible.
Do you know the warning signs of a cult? JWs aren’t the only group who qualify as a cult right now. I’ll use examples from other cults too.
Warning signs of a cult:
Behavior control— Controlling who members can associate with, what they can wear, what they can spend their time doing, even what members can eat. Members must report major actions to superiors. Individualism is suppressed so group-think can dominate.
Mormons- magic underwear, can not consume caffeine alcohol or tea, mandatory 10% tithe, “serious” sins confessed to leaders, etc…
Scientologists- TR and auditing sessions, controlling what members can wear, forced sleep deprivation
JWs- no “worldly” friends, can not mimic “worldly” styles, must preach, go to meetings and everyday read literature, can not consume blood, can not watch R rated movies, can not listen to music with curse words, can only marry other JWs, must confess “serious” sins to elders, be ware of “independent spirit” be one in the lord, and as you know many many more “can nots” and “musts”
Information control- deliberately holding back information from outsiders, members not allowed to seek out dissenting info, extensive use of cult generated propaganda
Mormons-  concept of “milk before meat”–only tell new members what they need to know in their current stage of spiritual development, distortion of history, clear push to spin everything in the church’s favor in it’s magazines, closed-off temple rituals, religion must be accepted as truth despite changed doctrines
Scientology- reading information disagreeing with the church is strictly forbidden, ex-members who talk about negative experiences are harassed, new Scientologists are told about secret levels that are so powerful, that if a person sees them who is “not ready” to, they will get sick, go insane, or even die. They are also told that these levels contain the secrets of the universe and will make them into an all-powerful “operating thetan” with god-like abilities. New members told Scientology compatible with all religions but once inside, all literature says “all religion will bring about enslavement of man.” Downplaying of legal controversies. Only Scientology approved literature allowed when searching for life meanings.
JWs- inaccessible elders books, pioneer books, “Public” and “JW only” editions of Watchtower, not allowed to read “apostate” literature or talk to ex-JWs, “to the reading of many books there is no end and it’s wearisome to the soul” not allowed to read too much other outside of the JW literature, collage is strongly discouraged, cover-up of legal controversies, changed doctrines do not diminish leadership’s status as “lead by god”, only JWs have keys to life.
Thought control- must internalize groups doctrines as “truth”, loaded language that stops dissenting ideas, only “good” and “proper” thoughts are allowed, all critical questions about leaders, doctrines or policies are seen as illegitimate and bad , alternative belief systems are viewed as completely bad and useless,
Mormons- all church’s teachings are “the truth”, rejection of critical analysis of religion and constructive criticism, members are encouraged to openly/publicly share only positive testimonies with outsiders and fellow members, Us vs. Them mentality, Black & White thinking- very little to no middle ground
Scientology- Us vs. Them mentality- “attack the attacker”, anyone who questions teachings is labeled an “SP” suppressive person, “disconnection” is a step Scientologist take where they cut off all contact with anyone who’s not a member, all religion will bring about enslavement of man.
JWs- “make the truth your own”, all people who speak critically of religion are “apostates” “being misled by Satan”, “Babylon the Great” all religions will be destroyed by Jehovah, association with non-JW family must be minimized, Us vs. Them “the world loves it’s own” “must not be a part of the world”, Black & white thinking- you’re either going to live or die at Armageddon
Emotional control- any problems experienced are the individual members’ fault not the group’s, heavy use of guilt and fear, narrow range of acceptable feelings
Mormons- if you are righteous then you must feel the spirit, members aren’t perfect but the gospel and church are, pride is felt in being a tiny minority who’ve found their way to the true church, guilt in striving for perfection but not getting there- perfection being only godly thoughts and actions, any family member who does not live up to Mormon standards forever breaks the “sealed” family- this meant to create guilt towards loved ones for not adhering to teachings, fear of the future without the group- if you leave then you’ll go to hell, you’ll be possessed, you’ll go insane, you’re life will be wrought by accidents. Ex-Mormons are shunned. People who leave are viewed as “weak”, “undisciplined”, “seduced by money, sex, and ungodliness”.
Scientology- fear of becoming an “SP”, shunning, guilt of negative “thetans” and not unlocking hidden human abilities, anyone who disagrees with teachings “misunderstood” and must reread material over and over until they “understand”, guilt and shame for not “understanding”
JWs- JWs are not perfect but the Organization as a whole is perfect, fear of disfellowshipping, fear of being labeled “spiritually weak”, fear of being led by own heart- distrust of even self, group uses guilt and shame to force members into line- “must not stumble” other members. Public announcement of disfellowshipped and “reproved” members. Jehovah is a happy god, must be happy when associating with other JWs, when preaching. Special feelings for finding the cramped and narrow path- being a part of the special few. Stories told on stage of people who leave and fair badly as a way to scare JWs from leaving. Fear of demons attached to music, shows, and items. Doing more in the work of the Lord is the only way to happiness. Guilt for not worshipping “whole-souled”. Fear of not being strong enough when Great Tribulation hits. Fear of death at Armageddon.


Q
Hi, I just discovered your blog in a really funny way.. I dont mean to come off snarky or disrespectful, as I am a Unbaptized Publisher. but I don't understand why you would leave. Like I'm only 15 and my family has been off and on but why would you leave? Your parents do seem to be very sorry for the wording but "hardcore JW's" but do they not understand.. Couldn't you be both a artsy person and a JW? or was it just that you wanted to be part of the world? Please respond back :)
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Yeah, how did you find this blog? I’m pretty sure JWs aren’t allowed to talk to people who’ve left. I don’t mean to come off as snarky or disrespectful, but don’t you already have your mind made up that the religion is The Truth™ and that I’m the one in the wrong? Aren’t you just going to view everything I saw as me saying, “yeah, I just love Satan’s world and being selfish” ?
When someone’s already made up their mind that they have “the world” and everyone who leaves the cult figured out, then why am I going to waste my time trying to open up a closed-off mind that has well-rehearsed circular responses?


To my sisters and brother

Hello my loves,
I’ve been writing this letter to you for 2.5 years. I keep throwing it out because it’s not good enough. There’s so much pain and sadness and deep love and hope that I have for you that I just can’t write enough or it becomes too much.
I think about the 3 of you every single day. Any happiness is stifled so long as I’m away from you.
I love you guys. A lot. The last 3 years of my time as a Jehovah’s Witness were because I couldn’t bear the pain of being away from you. Not having you in my life is more painful than I ever thought I was ready for. If I had known how much this was going to hurt then I would have stayed longer. I was going to leave one day, it was my plan for a long time, but I still question whether I left too soon. Were you 3 old enough to even understand why I would leave?
I have a lot of things to say and explain but I think I’ll save most of that for when I see you again. I want you 3 to know that I love you so much. I’m so sorry- I know that my decision to leave the religion would hurt you. I hate everyday knowing that no matter how much I love you and want nothing but happiness for you, the religion would paint me as something evil to avoid, a danger to you. I know that Gerry would want to protect you from the “wickedness” in my heart. I just want to see you and hug you and tell you in person how much I care for you and think about you. I don’t care about religion or our parents. I don’t care about the time that has and will pass. I don’t care about distance. I’m here. I accept you, always, because you’re my sisters and brother. I’m still your sister. I’m just me, I love you, and I hope that we can be with each other.
You are forever a part of me.


2&#160;1/2 years and I&#8217;m still glad I&#8217;m out :) 

2 1/2 years and I’m still glad I’m out :)